I love you so...why won't I love you?

I'd gladly lose me to find you
I'd gladly give up all I had
To find you I'd suffer anything and be glad

I'd pay any price just to get you
I'd work all my life and I will
To win you I'd stand naked, stoned and stabbed

I'd call that a bargain
The best I ever had
The best I ever had

I'd gladly lose me to find you
I'd gladly give up all I got
To catch you I'm gonna run and never stop

I'd pay any price just to win you
Surrender my good life for bad
To find you I'm gonna drown an unsung man

I'd call that a bargain
The best I ever had
The best I ever had

I sit looking 'round
I look at my face in the the mirror
I know I'm worth nothing without you
In life one and one don't make two
One and one make one
And I'm looking for that free ride to me
I'm looking for you

I'd gladly lose me to find you
I'd gladly give up all I got
To catch you I'm gonna run and never stop

I'd pay any price just to win you
Surrender my good life for bad
To find you I'm gonna drown an unsung man

I'd call that a bargain
The best I ever had
The best I ever had

I've said it for years, nobody expresses me better than The Who. Bargain is not a love song but the lyrics are for someone I truly do love. I met her a while back, I won't say when and so many months later I find myself in love with her. I don't know if she realizes it or not and I don't know how she feels about it, but I just wish I could tell her. The reasons I will not tell her is because of the simple fact theirs something that prevents me from doing so.

This "thing" is the mere fact that in order to do that, I'd have to give up everything I got. Two days ago, I implied to someone that I did love her and how they feel about it is unknown to me when you consider that they are also in love with her. I really want to tell her but by doing that I feel I'd lose everything I got, everything I built over the last two years...for someone who I truly feel is the right one for me. She may read this and not know that its her I'm talking about.

I wish, if anything that theirs a way I could be with her without consequence, but that itself doesn't seem likely. I hope she does read this and realize who that its her I truly love the most. However, until the day this occurs she will and may never know and it saddens me that that scenario is likely. To her, I love you and hope one day we can be together without consequence. Until then, I'm doing the right thing and playing observer. Its hard for me to really explain at this time but I hope she's somewhere near me and dear god you must believe me theirs no one in this universe that makes me feel so alive other than her.

Chris Brown and Rihanna

So Chris Brown and Rihanna are back together again...yes I am saying this. Words can't describe the stupidity in this situation. I know fans of these two are willing to defend them and everyone is entitled to a defense. However, in this situation I cannot see how you can defend either here. The only credit I can give Chris Brown is that he is a brilliant musician, however, as I said with the Chris Benoit situation, it doesn't matter what he did in his career, all that matters is that he is a no good prick.

Chris Brown is the poster child of people who will always have an army because of the many girls that love his looks and his music. I will admit, when Chris Benoit killed his wife and son, I was one of the first people to come to his defense. I cited that perhaps he was under a mental condition or that maybe Nancy murdered his son and he killed her. However, just like the legion of Chris Brown fans should realize, he is guilty and should be punished.

As for Rihanna, she represents everything that is wrong with women. I just don't understand this, I hear on the news everyday about how these women are getting abused by their spouse/boyfriend, and yet they want to stay with the person and then we see something like how she's walking around with a black eye or he winds up killing her. Hell, I've heard of relationships like these in our school and yet the girl just wants to stay with the guy who treats her like garbage. Go ahead, fans of these two, try to defend them. Theirs no possible way you will ever convince me that they're a good couple who should stick together.

Rihanna is a beautiful young lady. She is 20 years old and she can have any man in the world. Yet she chooses Chris Brown who is clearly unsuitable for any relationship. Is it his looks, money, or this disguise he wears that draws her to him? Either way its ridiculous and you'd think after the whole Tina/Ike Turner situation that women would grow smarter with relationships. Its clear, she is stupid and he's an asshole.

Go ahead and defend them, but remember you're fighting a lost cause. This is all wrong and will end badly.

The End of an Era(2001-2009)

In January 2001, George W. Bush was inaugurated as President of the United States of America. His election was controversial at the most due to a court decision that gave him the job over Al Gore. Today, January 20, 2009, it is all over for George W. Bush is no longer President. Depending on whose view you take, some remember Bush as a great President whose fatal flaw was the public eye and mis-interpretations while many see him as a total failure due to the collapsing economy, betraying the U.N., and cheating his way to being President due to nepotism and fraud. I was a supporter of Al Gore mainly due to my liberal views and was upset about the election of Bush.

However, I feel that he should be given a fair trial before his tenure was over. However, the Bush administration to me will always be a failure. I was indifferent in this election(depending who you ask) but feel that despite many people in this area opposing that we should give Barack Obama a fair shot and if things haven't picked up within 3 years then we shall elect a new President. For now good luck to Barack Obama.