I love you so...why won't I love you?

I'd gladly lose me to find you
I'd gladly give up all I had
To find you I'd suffer anything and be glad

I'd pay any price just to get you
I'd work all my life and I will
To win you I'd stand naked, stoned and stabbed

I'd call that a bargain
The best I ever had
The best I ever had

I'd gladly lose me to find you
I'd gladly give up all I got
To catch you I'm gonna run and never stop

I'd pay any price just to win you
Surrender my good life for bad
To find you I'm gonna drown an unsung man

I'd call that a bargain
The best I ever had
The best I ever had

I sit looking 'round
I look at my face in the the mirror
I know I'm worth nothing without you
In life one and one don't make two
One and one make one
And I'm looking for that free ride to me
I'm looking for you

I'd gladly lose me to find you
I'd gladly give up all I got
To catch you I'm gonna run and never stop

I'd pay any price just to win you
Surrender my good life for bad
To find you I'm gonna drown an unsung man

I'd call that a bargain
The best I ever had
The best I ever had

I've said it for years, nobody expresses me better than The Who. Bargain is not a love song but the lyrics are for someone I truly do love. I met her a while back, I won't say when and so many months later I find myself in love with her. I don't know if she realizes it or not and I don't know how she feels about it, but I just wish I could tell her. The reasons I will not tell her is because of the simple fact theirs something that prevents me from doing so.

This "thing" is the mere fact that in order to do that, I'd have to give up everything I got. Two days ago, I implied to someone that I did love her and how they feel about it is unknown to me when you consider that they are also in love with her. I really want to tell her but by doing that I feel I'd lose everything I got, everything I built over the last two years...for someone who I truly feel is the right one for me. She may read this and not know that its her I'm talking about.

I wish, if anything that theirs a way I could be with her without consequence, but that itself doesn't seem likely. I hope she does read this and realize who that its her I truly love the most. However, until the day this occurs she will and may never know and it saddens me that that scenario is likely. To her, I love you and hope one day we can be together without consequence. Until then, I'm doing the right thing and playing observer. Its hard for me to really explain at this time but I hope she's somewhere near me and dear god you must believe me theirs no one in this universe that makes me feel so alive other than her.